"Play a game you'll never win"

guttural thoughts on surrender

“God, You invited me to play a game I’ll never win.”

I wrote this in my journal weeks ago, only to accidentally discover later that I’d also written it in my journal over a year ago — the exact phrase. I circle these mountains in order to climb them, apparently.

I’m rarely competitive, except with myself. The last race I ran to win, I wrote split times on…